“Somewhere in the end we’re all insane
To think that light ahead can save us from this
Grave that’s in the end of all this pain”
~ The Pretty Reckless / House on a Hill
I am making progress, but some adjustments are needed. I can’t be upset, I lost nearly a pound and a half so I must celebrate that. It is not where I wanted to be but it is better than a gain. I will be stronger next week.
I get up again! I went to Aikido last night for the third time all year. That is pretty sad. I am trying to get back on a regular basis, just haven’t been successful at it. I do have some great excuses on why I can’t make it. Alright, my excuses are lame and I have just been lazy.
So this week wasn’t much better than last week. On the plus side, I am down again (just over 340) and I learned or relearned a lot. I know where my trouble areas are and where I need to go from here.
I truly struggled all week. I just need to find a balance and I haven’t found it yet. I go gung ho a few days and then I fall off the wagon for a few days. This is not the way to do things. I will rebound this week. I have good accountability partners and that helps immensely!
This is a phrase my mom used to say all the time. What she meant by that is, she shouldn’t be the one to always have to make contact. I understand that completely. I feel like I am the one who always have to reach out to my ‘friends‘. If I don’t I can go for months before hearing from them. They seem to think that if I don’t contact them, it is because I am upset with them. It is like I am only in their minds when they want something.